I am tired. Can I be transparent for a minute. I have heard for the last year from every single church planter, that planting a church is the hardest thing they have ever done. Honestly, I thought they were just being whiners. I knew if wasn’t an easy task, but I thought they were inflating the issue just a bit. Now I realize they weren’t.
Every waking (and most sleeping moments as well) are occupied with what we need, who to invite, how much money have we raised, building paperwork and systems to run everything…..etc. Balancing a truly deep relationship with Christ through all that is hard. I know I am not alone. I know I have a ton of friends and family that are there for me. They lift me up and make this all work. But despite all that, at times it feels like it is all on my shoulders…..and my shoulders get tired.
I say all that, not to get people to feel sorry for me, but because I am realizing that this isn’t an event or feeling that is isolated to me or ministry. There are so many people that feel the weight of their families, jobs, outreach, church, school, and everything else is riding all on their shoulders. I would be willing to bet that if you were honest, you are probably a little tired right now (no matter how much sleep you got last night).
This morning as I was reading my devotionals, I found this verse that we have all heard and read a thousand times before.
Matthew 6:30-33 If God gives such attention to the appearance of wildflowers—most of which are never even seen—don’t you think he’ll attend to you, take pride in you, do his best for you? What I’m trying to do here is to get you to relax, to not be so preoccupied with getting, so you can respond to God’s giving. People who don’t know God and the way he works fuss over these things, but you know both God and how he works. Steep your life in God-reality, God-initiative, God-provisions. Don’t worry about missing out. You’ll find all your everyday human concerns will be met.
When I read this in the The Message version of the bible today, it struck me in a new way. I started to break down because I realized I haven’t allowed myself to just relax in God. To put away my worries, thoughts, tasks, and needs for a moment…..to get rid of my preoccupation of getting, and just close my eyes and enjoy God’s giving.
Today, why don’t you take a moment alone….or better yet, take a moment as a family to ignore distractions, and to-do lists. Just hold your spouse or kids close, and relax in God. Talk about the awesome things He has given you. Thank him for meeting all your human concerns, and giving you such an incredible life. Respond to the giving.
peace – love – recycle
P.S. If you live in the Lakeland Florida area and need a church, please check out Discover Family Church. We are planting this church in September 2014 and we have events happening all the time for you to meet us and get involved.